Rating – GS

Paring – Harm & Mac

Spoilers – Season 10 Episode 01 - ‘Hail and Farewell Pt. 2’

Disclaimer – JAG belongs to DPB, CBS, and Paramount.

Summary- How ‘Hail & Farewell’ should’ve been continued when you saw it through the eye of a shipper…

She needed some space. Some time to be able to think clearly. After her talk with Clayton Webb, Mac just wanted to get away. She just wanted to be alone.

When she saw a path from the house down towards beach, she took the chance and walked along it. The moment Mac’s feet touched the sand, she could view the beach. It was then she saw him.

‘Guess I’m not the only one who wants to be alone,’ Mac thought as she saw Harm a few feet away from her. He sat near the shore and simply surveyed the ocean. Her first reaction was to turn around and walk to the other side of the shore, but something was holding her back and drawing her to him.

"Is this seat taken?" Mac asked with a little smile on her face when she stood next to him. "But when you want to be alone I can go again." She continued before Harm could give her an answer.

"Sit down, Mac," Harm told her softly.

He had seen her the moment she touched the beach. He came here to be alone, but part of him hoped she would come to him. He saw that she hesitated and wanted to turn around when she saw him. But he was glad when out of the corner of his eye she walked towards to him.

Mac sat down next to him. For a while, they just sat there together and looked into the ocean.

"It's over with Clay," Mac informed Harm with a serious tone and broke the silence between them.

"Is that what you want?" Harm wanted to know.

"I don't have a clue what I want," Mac answered with a defeated tone in her voice. "I just know what I don't want. I'm tired of dissecting relationships. When you start to dissecting something, the damn thing is dead." She looked at Harm for the first time since they had started to talk.

"So don't talk to Clay. Talk to me," Harm suggested as he looked at her.

"I appreciate the offer," Mac told him gently never breaking their eye contact.

"But?" Harm asked and somehow he already knew the answer.

Mac sighed. "There's so much more to talk about then just Webb," she said and broke their eye contact.

"Well, Mac, when you're ready let me know, huh," Harm told her with a slightly defeated tone. He stood up and with one last sideways glance, he walked down the shore and left Mac behind.

Mac followed him with her eyes for a short time before she turned her attention back to the ocean.

‘Is that what you want?’ Mac could still hear Harm’s words. She had to close her eyes to regain focus on what she wanted. "What do you want, MacKenzie?" She muttered to herself and recalled everything that happened in the past few days.

The more she thought about everything the clearer it became. She knew what she wanted and what she definitely did not want anymore.

Mac looked to her right and could see Harm had walked for a while, but he was still in her vision. He was sitting a few yards away from her and was doing the same thing he was before she had joined him.

Mac took a deep breath and stood up. With one last glance to the house and to where Clayton Webb was on the porch, she slowly made her way down the shore.

The moment she reached him, he looked up at her. His eyes gave her the permission to join him once again.

However, this time she did not sit down next to him, but kneeled in front of him. She wanted to look into his eyes while she said what needed to be said.

She looked deeply into his eyes before she started to talk.

"What I want to have is a relationship where I don’t have to question my partner. I want to feel safe around him. I want to feel secure and loved. I want to know that I can trust him and love him without the fear of not knowing if there will be a tomorrow for us. I want to believe that everything he tells me is the truth. I want to be with someone who cares so much for me that he sees me first and not his job." Mac had to stop so she could take a deep breath before she could continue with her words. The words that for her might be the most important words she had even spoken to him.

"I want to be with the man who cares so deeply for me. That he researches information just to know more about my health condition. I just want this man to take me in his arms and make me feel secure and loved." Mac had a glimmer of hope in her eyes. She never stopped looking into Harm’s eyes while telling him what she needed to tell him.

Harm had been surprised when he saw Mac walk to him. The moment she stood up he thought she would make her way to the car and he was about to get up and follow her. However, when she turned his way he simply waited and remained seated.

He was even more surprised with the words she had spoken. He knew he had pushed her earlier. It was not on purpose, but still he knew she felt that way. They were so much alike in that aspect. He had felt pushed to make a decision he wasn’t ready to in the past as well. But this time he decided to give her the space she apparently needed and had walk away.

But now she was here, with him, and she needed him. Without saying anything, Harm simply did what she asked him to do. He took her in his arms and held her. He held her for minutes until Mac pulled away and looked at him with a sweet smile on her face. A smile he easily returned.

Mac turned around so she sat in front of him between his legs. Harm wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her against him. She laid her hands against his arms and hugged him to her. Harm rested his head on her shoulder and she could feel his hot breath on her left ear. Together they looked out over the ocean and simply enjoyed the breeze off of the ocean, the sound of the breaking waves, and the singing of the gulls.

This time Harm didn’t push Mac. He simply waited for her to start talking again. After a few minutes of the new silence she started to talk about the past few days. She told him about the talk she and Clay had shared minutes before.

"So did you kiss him, kick his ass, or both?" Harm asked with a slightly jealously note in his voice.

"None of the above. I simply slapped him across the face," Mac told him with a chuckle. Harm had to chuckle as well. He pulled her even closer to him and could feel when she got serious again.

"I’ve asked him if he was the sniper who shot at Simon," Mac continued.

"Was he?" Harm wanted to know.

"Yes, he was. He made the shot even though I was right next to Simon. I asked him how he could do it knowing that I was there as well."

"What was his answer?" Harm asked.

"He said he simply saw his job and not me. And in that moment he knew what he had to do it. He has known for a while that Tanveer was ‘the Hawk’ and didn’t give me any warning. He thought this way I was safe. Since Simon wanted him and not me I wasn’t in any danger," Mac said sadly with an angry note in her voice. "You didn’t shot at Simon even though I told you to do it. You didn’t take the risk."

"I never would and could have done it, Mac," Harm answered seriously.

"I know," Mac simply stated.

For a few more hours they talked about the past few days. They even mentioned some of the things that happened in the past year. When they were not talking they simply enjoyed the beautifulness in front of them. Just before the sun started to go down, Mac started to shiver.

"Are you cold?" Harm asked worried.

"A little bit," Mac answered.

Harm stood up before he helped her up as well. "Come on."

Together they started to walk back to the car before Mac grabbed Harm’s hand. It made him stop in his tracks and turn around. She looked into his eyes before she took his head in her hands and pulled him towards her. Mac kissed him. It was a short, sweet, and gentle kiss. It only lasted a few second before she released his lips.

"Thank you, Harm," Mac whispered, the rest of her words were spoken with her eyes.

"Let’s go home, Sarah," Harm told her gently and continued their silent talk with his eyes.

He took Mac’s hand in his and intertwined their fingers before they continued their walk back to the car.

Unknown to them on the porch, a defeated Clayton Webb followed them with his eyes. The knowledge that he just lost the best thing in his life ran through his head.

The End

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